Bulls***

The reality is..I'm trying to make everyone around me happy but inside me, it hurt me damn much. I guess everyone's smile are way more important to me. hmm i feel like wanna drowned my face into my pillow and started to cry. I'm hurt. I can't hide it anymore. I feel like wanna scream fucking out loud but I don't think that will work for me. Silently break my heart into pieces....

THINGS THAT I WANT IN 2010

1. get a new crush phone
2. get a new laptop
3. be a better person
4. a more peaceful world
5. complete homework before duedate
6. hangout more with bestfriend]
7. learn how to cook
8. save cash
9. think about the future
10. EXERCISE!!
11. get a new hairstyle
12. appreciate all the crazy thing
13. book a ticket & fly somewhere with someone special (winter vacation)
14. eat healthily
15. proving people wrong
16. finding money in my pocket
17. comfortable positions
18. meaningful items
19. showering away problems
20. singing harmonies

THIS FEELING OF MINE is suck

Ok, maybe I’m juz too emo about everything happened. I’m not going to drag myself overwrought juz 4 this tiny lil situation. I’m a big girl though and I think I can lose some load that loaded my brain. ‘some’ I said.

I juz finish reading someone’s diary of her relationship silently. Gosh I’m a bad diary stalker. But, I kinda pursuaded by the writer. She’s having difficult and harsh relationship with her boy that made her fall in love with. And her situation is a lot worse than mine. Her boy is cheating on her, she knew it and that torned her badly. More unpredictable, the boy cheating on her over her own best friend, who always hangin out with her and her boy friend. Lots of dramas happened but she’s still writting down inside her diary, expressing every way that she felt about.

Enough about her, it’s about me now.

I don’t know what to do. Maybe the best way that I can only do right now is pretending? Aaahh that is not the ‘best way’ I know. That could turn this situation a lot worse.I love him and that’s the only thing I feel right now.I wanna make this relationship works .I don’t want to get carry away by the ecstatic feeling of mine.And.. to people who have this hobby of judging me and my relationship can KEEP IT TO HELL.

Hyep Birthday Boy..

Enjoy this very special day

Because it only comes around once a year

Happy 22nd birthday

I will always keep you near. 

1st post for new year

Hey Blog.............

How are you? Oh good. Me? I’m fine. Not more than just fine.

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