for HIM

hmm.ok.ni y dijanjikan.i was really looking foward for this.i hope ,HIM read this.aku nk die tau ape aku rase,theres no way to contact him now..ape la dose aku smpi camni.dlu we r so perfect for each other.1st time msg pen mcm dah lame knl.me tot u r d one baba.xpe la.aku redha.its nice knowing u chenta...

dear MFMR,

hye. how are u?

missing u loads ba. a lot

all those late nite SMSes, mid nite talks, 3Gs

skng dah xde lg.huuu

ur comments on FB, n if were still together, sure ull be d 1st to noe bout my blog

the callnames, sayang, chenta. seldom but funny

the way u would say "ye, umi" when i call u "baba" on the fon

the way u hold my hand, walk we across a street, make sure i step on d rite step of escalators

but nevamind dat. ur happier now rite, syg?

dat all dat matters to me anyway.

kuikuikui (u use this as smiles in SMS. ill never forget dat=P)

now, i masih sedih

but afterall kan, i pk balik. nape i nak sedih?

u hepi je. dats what i want. i want u to be happy. n xkan la i nak sedih coz ur happy

its just not rite. i noe i have to show dat im happy too

plus theres so many ppl nak i hepi. so im 'kinda' hepi

but not d same as mse u ade by my side

u noe what, waking up every morning, noeing kite together da ckup mmbahagiakn

tp i xsdr, dlm kegembiraan i tu, u suffer. honestly, i dunno, baba!

so i pjuk hati i. in relationships, perlu ade sacrifices

and i've made mine. just to see u smile, chenta!

nope. im not blaming u.

everything happens for a reason

and if the reason is "u just cant luv me no more"

i terima.

whether its a reason or an excuse, hanya u n Allah je yg tau.

klu la i boleh relive those days. klu la i boleh turn back time

but i couldnt. i just couldnt

i noe i've made some mistakes along the way. im sorry

tp i manusia. u pon manusia. we humans are born to make mistakes rite?

im so sorry for all my mistakes. really sorry

tp, in ur next relationship, plz be more serious. Appreciate what u have

opportunity doesnt come twice in life. seize it. n dont be afraid to commit.

ssh nye nak truskan hidup without u, ba.

but what to do?

cme satu je tmpt i mngadu skrg. i akan terus doa, doa, dan doa.

hmm. slme kite bersame ni, u byk ajar i ttg life. ttg luv.

thnx.all the ups and downs will always be the best memories in my life.

i harap plg kurg, kite bole jd best fwen

we noe each other better rite? wlupun u slalu ckp i tak paham u.

but up to u. i hv no say already

u boleh bwt assumptions psl i, tp perasaan i, hati i, cme i yg tw.

it may seem like im OVER IT. tp who knows kan syg? yup. no one knows.

tp mcm yg i pnh janji dlu

no matter what happen. u will ALWAYS be here, in a special place in my heart.

(n we both noe im the one who still keep my promises)

SAYANG, CINTA, KASIH BABA ~ ~
 forever and ever, babe